Have you ever wanted something so bad and after getting it the importance or value seemed to diminish? I’ve have that happen to me several times before in my life. I wanted something so badly and when I got it I didn’t really care about it so much. In this I’ve learned simplicity is key to a life with less suffering. The more the ego wants the more you lose to material things of the world. The less you feed into the ego the more you grow in your spiritual walk.
By no means am I telling you to sell everything in your home and go live in an RV. By no means am I frowning upon you because of the things that you wish to buy or spend your money on. I am only offering a perspective. I was at once someone who needed to shop, even if I didn’t have much to spend I would go thrifting. This especially satisfied me. Just the thought of “buying” something new. I began to refer to it as retail therapy. I justified it by saying I look nice or I feel nice, knowing damn well I had no more space in my home for many more clothes. I had to search inside of me. Why am I making all of these purchases? Why am needing to surround myself and my space with things? What am I running from? Why can’t I sit still and deal so that I may heal? I asked myself these real questions.
I stopped shopping and started going to my mat. I spent a lot of time writing and reflecting, asking and answering these questions sometimes with brutal honesty. I began to move my body instead of curling up when things around me became tense. I got rid of a lot of things. I began to purge my body and my life. I am so happy that I made that conscious decision.
One by one the things that I released were replaced in a new way. I wouldn’t even necessarily call it new I would say an upgrade if I’m being totally transparent. Material things started to diminish and my life became empty enough to receive bigger and greater things. This for me was changing. I learned to value things, people, time, space, and energy. I gained networks and valuable resources. I gained knowledge and for me that was worth everything.
Today I am learning more than ever that it is in fact my ego that wants to hold on to things. I am realizing that it is the attachment to anything that brings all suffering. I am learning to detach from mental distractions and cultivate peaceful spaces and atmospheres. I invite you to take time and explore what makes you truly happy and fulfilled. Release the things that weigh you down and distract you from your peace. There is always a process. Nothing happens over night, so take your time. Be gentle with yourself always.
Thank you for reading and receiving. I look forward to sharing with you each week.
Keep your head up Zion.